Questions and answers

Why do we in this family have to suffer from our infancy till our adulthood, and then some more? Why do some people have the easy way over everything and some others had to suffer?
Is God that cruel?
Is God that unfair?
Is God deliberately picking on us, bullying us for someone’s past sin, or current sin?

My former boss used to say, “Nobody promised you a fair life, so live with it..” Yeah, rite..
I’d love to say the same words in his face when he is down in the dumps, or when something unfortunate happens to him or his family, or his Porsche, or his Mercs..

I guess working hard to live has some virtue, and some rewards. We build stronger bodies hauling 20-foot 4”x4” pole on our shoulders from Bangunan Abu Kassim to Jalan Semangka, via Jalan Ubi as a 13-year old. We build stronger muscles carrying 2x50lit. for 2kms everyday from the stand-pipe before school. We build better survival skills from all the fishing using hand lines, the crab catching using tree branches, the clam digging using clam shells. We had to work hard to get every ringgit, during school holidays and any other day.

So God is not too bad, making us work hard for our keep, building us up as He goes along. He builds character, builds the personality, the person, the experience, so we can be a better person in our later lives.

But how is it fair when some people don’t have to do all those, never lifted a finger during their teen years, enjoys all the fine things in life, goes to the library every weekend, tuition for every subject, wears nice clothes, new shoes every first day of school – yet they ended up much better in life. Why don’t they suffer like us too? They go through university, with scholarship, no need to worry of fees, accommodation, or food, or books or paper or whatever. Some has the privilege to study overseas, came back with jobs waiting, no worries.

I’m not bitter, I’m not upset.

Nor am I unhappy with what have been given to me. On the contrary, I’m blessed to be living this life, albeit all the hardship I am going through. I just want to have more comprehension of all these unfairness.

Is it really necessary O God?
Is it not enough for God to make us suffer when we are younger, He has to make us suffer now too?
What did we do or did not do, or what did our fathers or forefathers did for us to deserve this?

Thank you God for all You have provided for me and my family, You are indeed The Most Gracious and The Most Merciful.

Please O God, shield our eyes away from the easy life, abundance and the glad tidings that You have granted to Your other subjects in spite of their riaq, their apparent sins; so we can be less envious, spend more for the unfortunate, rather than spend more to keep up with the Joneses. Open our eyes to the means and opportunities and ways for us to improve our lives, the best and halal way.

We know You are not going to drop gold and silver out of the skies, all the riches would not pay for the roof and gutters repair bill… We’ll look for them ourselves, just point us the way, and help us along.. thank you..